If one can remain angry enough for a certain amount of "unhealthy" time, it will grow into bitterness and then that bitterness if feed long enough will grow into wrath...It is a cycle HB...
I agree. But it's not the hanging on to bitterness or anger that gets me in trouble, it's the simple part of just asking God to have me let go the bitterness and anger. I can't let these thing go on my own, I don't know how. Only Christ can takes them away from me, but I must want him to.
I don't let it get to bitterness...
For me it's not about NOT letting it get to bitterness. If I NOT let it get to bitterness it would be like bottling it up inside and stowing it away. Perhaps I put a cork on it and it's not growing, but deep somewhere is that bottle of bitterness. It does'nt have to to be a big bottle either but just there. So I let the bitterness be, and it hurts, but I tell God I don't want it.
Who knows what was truly going through her thought process...
the story about my friend was more of an anecdote for me, when I complain or worry and God provides everything for me despite my worries or complaints. I learn about what God is going through or feels when the tables are turned on me. When in this instance I was the provider for her needs, and in my thoughts was "trust me, it's going to be fine," but she complained anyway. And when everything did go well, there was no gratitude. I shared this story with you, not for me to pass judgement on her (I don't expect to know what her thought process was), but I wanted to share the story as a learning experience I had.
When ever I do something such as you did, take someone to lunch and pay or some other gesture,
That is a tremendous blessing for you, Pamela. :D It means God shall not hold you accountable for everything he has done for you.
HB we all have faults, regrets, complaints...
I don't know about the other's faults or about your faults, Pamela. I only know my faults and I post them here for other Christians to read, to share my authenticity and my love with the others. I believe this serves as support to others who believe in Christ, because it dispells the stereotype of the Christian, a perfect Christian, the Bible immersed, ashamed to admit, "all you others that are sinners, this is the way to do it" Christian.
After reading your post, I asked myself "Is this about me?" My answer would be no.
My answer would be yes because I am still alive and breathing and because of that God is still working on me. He will be finished with me on my day of judgement. My question about me that I offer others to ask about themselves here is meant to take a look at the whole picture, from (your) birth to death.
So it is about me, and that everything I want to change in me I must want from Christ, because I don't change myself. I don't have that power, I don't know how. I am weak. I don't send a spirit to come and go as I please, be it a spirit of rebellion or anger (The story of King Saul show that). And, what I realize is there are things about me that I think are fine when God painfully points out "No, they are not." So, I end up learning how to want to get that changed from him for him.
Again, I don't get into trouble for hanging onto bitterness alone for a long time. It's when I don't learn to want God to change that in me.
I quote this verse, what does it say to you HB?
Exodus 14:11-15
I will answer because you asked me. I must die in the wilderness. Moses did not say anything about the Israelies NOT dying. He said to trust God for their salvation, and to die in the wilderness IS part of that salvation.
The Israelies chief complaint was that they did not want to change and would have rather stayed in Egypt, for had they known it meant to die in the wilderness they would have stayed in Egypt and kept their mouths shut.
So, if I complain the Lord will take me out of the wilderness, but it's should not be with what I want but with what God wants. To me this parallels what Christ had experienced, when he could have had the cup of suffering taken away, but instead he wanted what God wanted for him to do, so he received the cup of suffering, he stayed in the wilderness and he died, while trusting God.
In many cultures death and dying means change.
I hope the lesson in all this stays with me. Thanks Pamela.